Thursday, December 30, 2010


HAPPY NEW YEAR!!! I trust everyone had a great Christmas with their families. Mine was a very busy and blessed time. Hopefully the weather will be good tomorrow and we can go to my husband's folks and visit with everyone there. I hope this cold that's coming on will stay away long enough for me to sing at ben's Dad's church.

Thursday, December 9, 2010


I have been thinking a lot about the word "Church" and how its applied today and I want to get out of the habit of saying I'm going to church because I don't think its right. for one thing Jesus isn't coming for a building that's to be without spot or wrinkle he's coming for the people that are in the building. The body of Christ, which are the believers, they are the Church and not where we go to fellowship. That's one thing that the Anabaptists have right and I think that we as Christians should really work on recognizing that its not the building its the people in the Building, they are "The Church."

Tuesday, November 30, 2010

this is an awesome article. to really make us think and to want to search out the Scriptures like we should and allow the Holy Spirit to teach us. BE blessed!!!

Thursday, November 11, 2010



Tuesday, November 9, 2010


well, we are settling nicely I think into our new church. Everyone there has been really friendly and we have gotten together with some of the families and its just been great. I hope and pray that it lasts. God knows all things and His timing is perfect, I just need to trust and have faith in that.

Friday, October 29, 2010

Rules for living

So ben and I have had enough of being lazy and disorganized and we are ready to change and make living worth while. we have laid ground rules and have given ourselves things that we have to get done just about every day if we want to have relax time or tv time and we have given ourselves cut off times for computer and tv. I really believe that God will helps get caught up and keep us caught up as we continually give Him our lives and our schedules to Him. So please be in pray for us as we start this new journey.

Sunday, October 24, 2010


well yesterday we found out that our house church wasn't going to be meeting anymore. so we are again churchless. we found out the reason today and I can definitely understand. the guy that was leading it is wife isn't doing well and feels that he must take care of his wife more. He said that if his son, ben and another guy wanted to get together and pray about continuing it he would come. So I just don't know what we are going to do. I guess for now we might go to the Faith Missionary Church which is a Holiness Church and pray and seek God about what He would have us do. its just really hard because I can't see where God is leading and that's hard for me because I am the type of person that needs to be in the know. I know this is good for me to go through every once in awhile because it makes me be more dependent on God and learn to trust Him no matter how hard the going is.

Wednesday, October 13, 2010

sad and disappointed

So its been 2 months since ben and I left the Foursquare Church. Its been good though and I know its what God wanted us to do. but I'm just sad and disappointed because I wanted to stay somehow connected with the people through the coffeehouse and that hasn't happened and every year we have a Christmas party at my home and I guess the church has something else planned. I mean its great they are actually really starting to do things and have projects for the church and growing. I just figured I guess our connection wouldn't change much. but I was wrong. I know they are all busy. I don't know, maybe God is saying that our time has completely past with them. I really need to pray and think about it.

Monday, October 4, 2010


well just about everyone I know that was married after me have babies or are pregnant or going to have their second. I am just feel so left out and I am trying to understand why ben and I have not been blessed with a baby yet. Having a baby would be the greatest thing in the world to me. I hate working, I want to be home so bad with a baby. I just don't understand. I am trying hard to just leave it in God's hands, but its so hard to not get depressed. I have been praying so hard for a baby that I don't think I can pray anymore.

Friday, October 1, 2010

very good sermon

I normally don't post sermons or anything, but ben and I really felt challenged and blessed by it that I wanted to share it. So here's a 3 part sermon on Law and Grace. Part one the relationship between Law and grace, part 2 is righteousness by faith or by effort? and part three is grace conditional or unconditional? Be encouraged, blessed and challenged.


so lately the winds of trials and tribulations have been blowing and its been a very hard week and i have been down, but i have been reminded of how important it is to trust God and study His Word and allow Him to lead and guide me no matter what the cost.

Monday, September 20, 2010


well I've been thinking alot about adoption and I am looking into domestic infant adoption and Embryo adoption. Even though I want to have my very own children that maybe God has something else in mind right now. so please be in prayer with and for ben and I as we start looking into this path that God may have for us.

Tuesday, September 14, 2010


well, its been a few days since my last blog and to be honest I haven't been very good at keep up with my Bible Study. I know I should. Life has been busy right now. I started a job 3 weeks ago and my husband has been extremely busy at work and he's been working nights here at home trying to get things done for a conversion coming up. I have been struggling to tell my family that we won't make it for Thanksgiving this year because I need a break from all the teasing and comment making about how I dress. anyways, sorry for the depressing blog. I must remember that in all things I need to praise and thank the Lord for what he has done for me!

Wednesday, September 1, 2010


Well, its that time of year again when everything changes and the weather gets cooler and the leaves start to change colors. A lot has changed here in the Cutler household lately. We have left our church and now go to another and it has been hard, but we have been getting through and God has been working in our lives and I am so excited about what God is and will do. A couple of nights ago Ben and I were having a deep conversation about whether we have seen any growth in our lives spiritually and it was a great conversation and just by asking those kinds of questions show that there has been and I've been so inspired to do a Bible Study by myself called "A Woman After God's Own Heart." So far it has really been so refreshing and I'm learning what it means to be a woman, and a wife. To be all that God wants us to be is something that we reach for every day. I love what Elizabeth George says " You are never wasting time when you are spending it with God." I just love that!!! Another thing she says is,"It is discipline, because there is work for us to do. It is Grace, because the life of God which we enter into is a gift which we can never earn...Discipline in and of itself does not make us righteous, it merely places us before God...The God's work." Isn't that wonderful?

Tuesday, August 31, 2010


here's a quote that I read in my Bible Study work book:

"May I be careful to maintain a constant, habitual sense of Thee in my mind; to live and act as in Thy presence; to think often of Thee.May I ever remember that I am in the presence of the great and holy God." by Susanna Wesley

Monday, August 30, 2010

feeling inspired

I feel inspired to and I started today do the "A Woman After God's Own Heart" by Elizabeth George Bible Study. I am very excited about what the Lord wants to teach me because I only can be the woman, wife and someday mother that God wants me to be only if I let Him teach me and that's what I want. So please pray that I will hear from God as I start this journey of becoming A WOMAN AFTER GOD'S OWN HEART!!!

Friday, August 27, 2010

neat devo

this Daily Bread Devotional really hit me today and I thought I would share it.

Both Near And Far

Turn away my eyes from looking at worthless things, and revive me in
Your way. —Psalm 119:37

Everything was quiet in our yard. While I worked at the patio table,
our dog, Maggie, lay nearby in the grass. A slight rustling of dry
leaves changed everything. Maggie made her move, and suddenly she was
circling a tree, where a woodchuck clung tightly to the trunk.

Maggie came when I called, but I couldn’t get her to look at me. Her
neck was in a rigidly fixed position. Although she was near me
physically, her thoughts and desires were with that woodchuck.

Maggie and the woodchuck remind me of how quickly I become preoccupied
with things that take my eyes off Jesus. Old temptations, new
responsibilities, or ongoing desires for possessions or pleasure can
quickly divert my attention from the One who knows and wants what is
best for me.

A similar spiritual condition afflicted the Pharisees (Matt. 15:8-9).
They were serving in the temple and instructing others, but their
hearts were far from God.

We too can teach and serve at church but be far from God. Even our
religious activity becomes meaningless when our focus is not on Jesus.
But if we stop being “stiff-necked” (Acts 7:51), the Lord can turn our
eyes away from worthless things and revive our hearts.

Some people follow Jesus Christ,
Then obstacles get in their way;
But if they’ll focus on the Lord
They won’t be led astray. —Sper

When Christ is the center of our life, all else comes into proper focus.

Matthew 15:7-20 (GOD’S WORD Translation)

7"You hypocrites! Isaiah was right when he prophesied about you:

8‘These people honor me with their lips, but their hearts are far from me.
9Their worship of me is pointless, because their teachings are rules
made by humans.’ ”

10Then he called the crowd and said to them, “Listen and try to
understand! 11What goes into a person’s mouth doesn’t make him
unclean. It’s what comes out of the mouth that makes a person

From Mrs. Ann--There is the expression "actions speak louder than
", however, words can speak very harshly, hatefully, nastily.
Adolf Hitler wasn't the evil man that he was because he ate pork, for
example. It was the words that he said, that condemned millions to
their deaths. There was the plane crash in the Andes in the 1970s,
the soccer team, where they were stranded for so long that the
survivors had to resort to cannibalism in order to survive. We are
taught that to eat our own species is akin to sacrilege, yet those
people, in such trying times, had to do just that. I give that as an
extreme example, and quite frankly, I don't know if God considered
that (in that situation particularly) to be unclean.

Unclean words are words spoken in hate, in anger, words denying God.
Spouses fighting, arguing, spewing forth hurtful words directed at
each other in the heat of anger. Children teasing fellow classmates
with such words as "four-eyes", "piggy", "weirdo", etc. None of these
are words of love or support, or wisdom.

12Then the disciples came and said to him, “Do you realize that when
the Pharisees heard your statement they were offended?”

13He answered, “Any plant that my heavenly Father did not plant will
be uprooted. 14Leave them alone! They are blind leaders. When one
blind person leads another, both will fall into the same pit.”

15Peter said to him, “Explain this illustration to us.”

16Jesus said, “Don’t you understand yet? 17Don’t you know that
whatever goes into the mouth goes into the stomach and then into a
toilet? 18But whatever goes out of the mouth comes from within, and
that’s what makes a person unclean. 19Evil thoughts, murder, adultery,
other sexual sins, stealing, lying, and cursing come from within.
20These are the things that make a person unclean. But eating without
washing one’s hands doesn’t make a person unclean.”

Monday, August 23, 2010

change continued

well so I started a job on Thurs. and its been great to get out of the house and meet new people. Its one of those jobs that its an easy job, but there's a lot to know. Now that I'm working I need to figure out a new house schedule, so that I can keep up with the household chores and etc.

Thursday, August 19, 2010


well I finally got a job!! Its at a donut and bake shoppe! today was my first day and it went great!

Monday, August 16, 2010

getting older

Saturday I will be 24! wow I'm getting older.

Saturday, August 14, 2010


well, I don't really know what to say. I am very saddened and hurt by the turn of events that have happened practically overnight. We told our now former pastor and wife that we felt God was wanting us to leave the church for now and that out of respect for them we felt it was right to tell them and that we would like to tell the congregation goodbye and that we felt God was leading us somewhere else. that was 2wks ago. He called today and said that after praying he didn't want us to tell the congregation and that he wasn't comfortable giving his blessing because we didn't know where we were going, but we remember telling them that we had found a place. I was so angry and hurt because after everything we had done for the church and them and ben was the worship leader for almost 5yrs he was not giving us the courtesy and the respect to tell the congregation goodbye and I felt that we owed the congregation that much to hear it directly from us and not from anyone else. Its funny how people say they appreciate everything that you do for them and then when u say u are leaving they turn on you and practically kick u under the rug. I know they must feel hurt and feel like we are deserting them, but still that's no way to treat a fellow brother or sister in Christ. Where's the love? When bad situations come up people's true nature comes out. But all in all, I must leave it at the feet of Jesus and show mercy and grace and expect nothing in return. We love and care and appreciate every single person at a certain place and we hope and pray that we can still be friends and stay connected. Please try and understand that we must follow where the Lord leads us and we only want to do His Will. Don't think for a minute that we are abandoning you, because we are not. God bless.

Thursday, August 12, 2010


well this sunday will be our last sunday. I have a mix of emotions, but I know that God is on the throne and He is and will continue to lead us. We still are going to have our coffeehouse every wednesday night starting on August 25 @ 7pm and its open to whoever wants to come!

Saturday, August 7, 2010


well we have decided that we will be leaving the church we have been going to. We feel this is what God wants us to do for now. Please continue to pray for us and that we will continue to hear from God. thanks.

Thursday, August 5, 2010

sleeping in

I love sleeping in, but at the same time I hate it because i always have trouble falling asleep.

Sunday, August 1, 2010


found out today that a girl in my church is pregnant with her third child. I am really happy for her and her family. Its just that they are flat broke and are moving into a trailer and its just frustrating to see people that are struggling having kids when the environment is unstable. I don't get why really stable people have a harder time. I just don't understand. Lord when is it going to be my turn?

Wednesday, July 28, 2010

thoughts going through my head

well, I'm sitting here in my living room thinking about my life and how far I have come and I am amazed at how much things have changed. Its been a hard road and I am so blessed to have a husband who loves and supports me and encourages me everyday, To have a father-in-law that I can now call Dad. I have struggles within myself of trying to find my place in the world and I'm so glad that my husband and his family love me, they try to and want to understand and they do accept that I do struggle with feelings of not belonging, trying to figure out who I am,they believe in me and know that I'm not hiding behind what I wear, that I have nothing to prove, but just trying to simply be modest and follow my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. I am and will be my own person and not who others want me or expect me to be because its too much and not fair to put that kind of pressure on someone. I wish my own family would just accept me for me and see how much I am growing and maturing and see how God is working and moving in my life.

Sunday, July 18, 2010


So i'm here's the recipe for the banana oat muffins:
1/4 cup smart balance, softened
3/4 cup dark brown sugar
2 eggs
3/4 cup mashed bananas ( about 2 bananas)
1/2 cup plain yogurt
2-1/4 cups of flour
1 teaspoon ground cinnamon
3/4 teaspoon baking soda
1/2 teaspoon salt ( i skipped the salt)
1/2 cup oats ( or however much you want)

In a large mixing bowl, cream the butter and sugar until light and fluffy. Add eggs, one at a time, beating well after each addition. stir in bananas and yogurt. Combine the flour, cinnamon, baking, salt and oats. bake at 350 for 45mins or until golden brown and the toothpick or knife comes out clean after poking them.

Saturday, July 17, 2010

made banana oat muffins this morning and I used brown sugar instead of regular sugar and plain yogurt instead of sour cream and oats instead of nuts. they were sooooo YUMMY!!!!!

Wednesday, July 14, 2010

my thoughts

well sarah, you wanted to read some thoughts so here's a few. haha. Well I've been thinking alot lately about why i dress the way I do. After reading a really good article and joining a support group of women that believe God has asked them to cover. I truly believe that what I'm doing is something that God wants from us women and that is to be modest. Paul at different times doesn't command but tries to persuade that it is a good thing to cover and be modest and he lists many good reasons of why its a good thing. For me I want to be modest not just out of respect for my husband but out of respect for other men and boys. Anyways that's my thoughts and here's the article if anyone is interested in reading it. just copy and paste it in the browser. God bless!

Friday, July 9, 2010

well I have been having a blast with my little niece and nephew!!! They are so cute and full of energy and I love it!!!! I want children so bad that I can barely contain myself!!! Please Lord let it be ben and I's turn soon!!! Every time there are kids in the house I feel motivated to get things done and clean the house and when the house is empty and its just the dog, cat and I don't feel motivated to do anything and I feel useless. why is that? Is it because my biological clock is ticking saying its time or what?

Sunday, July 4, 2010

HAPPY 4TH OF JULY!!! going to try the Assemblies of God church here in town today.

Tuesday, June 29, 2010

well over all had a great week with family. we saw the Badlands, Mt. Rushmore, Wind Cave, The Mammoth Site, buffalo, prairie dogs and pronghorned antelope!! it was fun. pics soon to come!

Sunday, June 20, 2010

So this is the first Sunday in a long time that Ben is not the worship leader, but he deserves a break and now we can really tune into what God wants us to do and I hope and pray we hear from God. That's all we ask for is that we hear and know beyond a shadow of a doubt what we are suppose to do. My family will be here tuesday night and I am so excited to see them!! After they leave we plan are visiting other churches. Please pray that we hear from God and that He will give us wisdom and direction on what to do.

Wednesday, June 16, 2010

is so frustrated!!! I'm trying to trust God and his timing, but its so hard to see people who were married after me pregnant and I've been married for 2yrs. I just don't understand, why God is allowing me to go through this dry time. I hope i get out of it soon because I am totally and utterly empty.

Thursday, June 10, 2010

I cry and cry to the Lord for help, but I feel He's so far away. I am sinking into the sea of loneliness,
despair, feeling i'm not good enough for anything, i do try to reach out to people and fellowship but i always feel they don't want to, i feel useless and lifeless. I am trying to find things i can do, but i haven't been able to find any and I feel like no one wants or is willing to help me. I feel out of control in my emotions. i feel unmotivated. i am nothing but a lump of leftover week old pizza.

Tuesday, June 1, 2010

HAD A GREAT 2ND ANNIVERSARY!!!! pics soon to follow!

Monday, May 24, 2010

well its been super hot and humid here lately 91 degrees. very very unusual for may. ben and I are now both have a sense that we will be leaving the church we are currently going to. We don't know when but it will be soon. Please pray that we hear from God and receive the wisdom and direction about where to go from here. In a sense it makes me sad, but I want to be where God wants me to be.

Wednesday, May 19, 2010

what does bearing fruit mean?

Ben and I have been talking alot and reading the Bible and something hit us and we were like wow!! We came across in the Gospels right after Jesus warns us about false teachers and prophets that we would know them by their fruits. Now, a lot of us think that bearing fruit is the result of doing a ministry or this and that. But what we realized is that Jesus isn't talking about what they are doing, but how they are living. It makes sense because in Galatians there's the list of the Fruit of the Spirit: love, joy, peace, longsuffering, gentleness, goodness, faith, meekness, and temperance. These are all of the things that we should have in our day to day lives. Jesus said that He was the vine and we are the branches and if we abided in Him, He would abide in us. What does that mean? I think it means if we are looking to Him and walking in Him and reflecting Him in our lives, then we will bear fruit which are love, joy, peace and etc. We can do all the ministry stuff we want to and be very successful, but if our lives are not reflecting the Character of Christ then what we are doing doesn't matter. So how are we living today? Are we reflecting Christ who was all of these Fruits or are we just saying we are Christians and not really living it? Its all about living and not doing. Something to really think about. Even I'm still thinking about it and I want to learn more of what it means to be like Christ and bear fruit.

Tuesday, May 18, 2010

I'm doing quite a bit better today. last week was super rough and yesterday too. but I'm getting alot of work done. I have my garden all planted. I have my veggie garden and I have a herb and tea garden!! I'm super excited about all the fresh food we will have! I am also happy that I have now lost a total of 9lbs. I'm 177 and it hasn't been easy. But I'm going to keep pressing forward and walking in God. Here's a question for us to ponder does God want us to strive or Walk? Lets think about that this week and look through the Word of God to find the answer. We may be surprised!

Thursday, May 13, 2010


Monday, May 10, 2010

well yesterday was so super hard, harder than last year. I'm truly thankful for what mom's do, but i wish i could join the ranks soon. You don't think about when u are a kid, but when u are married and you want to have kids its really really hard. its frustrating because there are women in the world who fool around and are not married get pregnant and just seemed to just pop them out and not take care or be responsible and they can celebrate mother's day and Its not fair to married couples that want kids so bad but are having a hard time getting pregnant, but they are responsible mature people. Life is not fair that's all i can say. I felt so alone yesterday, i was the only one who wasn't a mom in church yesterday, i sat in the bathroom through half of the sermon, because i felt so out of place, i feel out of place there any ways, but more so yesterday. I feel like I'm always last in alot of things. it seems like just about everyone that i know are having or did have babies that were married the same time i was and its like why can't i be too? it just sucks.

Monday, May 3, 2010

something totally new

so ben and I have decided to try this multivitamin fertility enhancement pill called Fertilaid. There's a formula for women and for men and I've been reading alot of good things about it and so I am hoping and praying that it will help.

Friday, April 30, 2010

God's timing is perfect even though we maynot think it is

Well I've been learning that there is a time for everything and that God's timing is perfect. Last week I went out ohio to visit friends and what I thought was going to be a vacation turned into a moving week and a week of healing. God was so faithful and blessed all of us and He knew what my friends needed and He blessed them very richly. I'm so grateful that I could have the closer that I needed with someone who was and is very special and a dear friend. Even through eveything that went on last week I feel renewed in my faith and now more than ever to take on life as it comes. Thank you my friends for an awesome week! you are the best!!

Thursday, April 22, 2010

weight loss continue

I have lost another 2lbs!!! I'm now 176!! YAY!!! I started at 186 and that means I've lost 10lbs!!!

Friday, April 16, 2010

so I've been really busy and I'm so glad to be getting away and being with friends. Sometimes a girl just needs that.

Wednesday, April 14, 2010

weight loss update

I have now lost 8lbs!!! I started at 186 and now i'm 178!!

Tuesday, April 13, 2010

weight loss continue

I have lost 7lbs total. I started at 186 and now i am at 179.

Sunday, April 11, 2010


please pray for us. we might be leaving our church after all. Lord, show us your ways.

Tuesday, April 6, 2010

weight loss

i've lost a total of 7lbs. I started at 186 and now I'm 179.

Monday, March 29, 2010

new weight loss goal

i want to lose 30lbs. in 6wks and then lose another 30lbs in 6wks.

Tuesday, March 16, 2010

WELL ALL I CAN SAY IS WOW!!!! biggest loser last chance workout is really awesome!!! it really works ya out!! i need to get heavier weights because my toning sticks are not enough. but all the other work outs are amazing!!

Saturday, March 13, 2010


so ben and I are thinking about maybe we should start thinking and praying about adopting babies. it would be cool because then the children will have something in common with me because I was adopted and that would be neat to talk and share with them about what its like to go through adoption.

Wednesday, March 10, 2010


So i think i'm going to try the special K challenge to lose 6lbs in 2wks. Replace two meals with special K cereal and eat one regular meal. Of course I will keep exercising and it will be even more fun to exercise now since we got the wii. But I will continue my Taebo workouts. Anyone want to join in the challenge?

Monday, March 8, 2010

well i'm really hoping and praying tha ben and I can take a month off of going to our church and go somewhere else for awhile. I really wish we could change all together but ben feels that we are not suppose to leave yet and its frustrating and depressing for me because I don't understand what God is doing. I wonder why God wants to keep me at a place where I feel like I'm not wanted and that I don't know anything about what its like to be in the ministry and how difficult it is to be a pastor. I know I don't know everything but I have a pretty good idea because I grew up in a pastor's home and I know and have seen the good and bad times. I have a pretty good handle of it and I see things at a different perspective and I just want the church to grow and do better and I feel like the pastor and his wife don't want to change and make things better because they have tried all kinds of things and to them they haven't worked and so they are so discouraged that just about everytime I have an idea they are very dismissive and have excuses of why they can't or it won't work. its time to wake up and try again its time to get out of the rut they have themselves in and listen to the congregation and deal with the issues that need to be addressed. A good shepherd listens, and deals with things and steps on toes in love so that there can be unity, balance, structure and boundaries to help us grow and connect with each other.

Friday, March 5, 2010


I hate the weekend, i really do. Because I never go anywhere and when the weekend comes and I want to do stuff or stay up really late and just hang with my hubby, he doesn't really cooperate. Sometimes he forgets that I never get out and go anywhere. It gets frustrating and I just get depressed and go crazy and it isn't until I'm in a emotional state and beg him to do stuff with me that he will. Now I love my hubby very much and he isn't perfect, but I just wished that he would be more attentive and remember me.

Tuesday, March 2, 2010

thoughts in my head

so i've been doing pretty well lately. I've started exercising and i've lost 2lbs so far and I'm really happy and i know that it will get hard but i will kick this weight out of town!!! So ben and I have decided to look around at different churches because I have been having a hard time this year and a half with going to the church we have been because I never got the chance to decided what church i would like to go to and he did and i went there because he did and I've really struggled with that. I haven't been able to connect and fellowship outside of church and I've tried to come up with things that the women could do to just connect with just women and I've just been shot down at every turn and its been really hard and I've felt like an outsider and that they don't want to connect with me. Now how we convey that to pastor and kathy will be very hard and i don't know how they will take that. So please keep praying for us. thanks.

Monday, March 1, 2010

exercise routine

So today is my second week of exercising and man let me tell ya its hard work!!!! Mon-Sat. I exercise twice a day. In the morning and in the afternoon. So lets keep rocking it out with the exercising and kick this weight out of town!!!! YEAH!!!!!!

Saturday, February 27, 2010

Weight Lose

Before weight:183

Week 1: 182
Week 2:180
Week 3:
Week 4:
Week 5:
Week 6:

Thursday, February 25, 2010

so i've been doing good with exercising the past couple of days. I'm starting a routine where I exercise twice a day mon-sat for 30mins each time. My goal is to lose 50lbs and be at 133 by the end of the year. please pray that I can keep going no matter how hard it gets.

Tuesday, February 23, 2010

Lord please give me the strength and the endurance to reach my goal at the end of the year.

Monday, February 22, 2010



Saturday, February 20, 2010

needs to start taking care of her body and lose weight!!

Monday, February 15, 2010


I'm so excited I have 2 new hobbies. Homemade laundry soap and homemade soap!!! I love figuring out how to make stuff. I'm still working away on my baby blanket for the new baby that was born at my old church a couple of weeks ago. Life is so full of surprises and unexpected turns but we must continue to walk by faith and not by sight and depend completely on the Lord to help us through.

Friday, February 12, 2010

Official Candle Prices

ok so today the official prices of my candles go into effect. Jar Candles-$5, Round Fluted Spiral Pillar-$4, Plain Round Pillar-$5.50 and the Square Oblique Pillar-$7. I have quite a few colors and scents. let me know on facebook or email me and I will let ya know what i have.

Tuesday, February 9, 2010

Book to read!!

if you haven't everyone should totally read the book "Glories Seen And Unseen" by Warren Henderson. Very good book. Really makes you think!

Monday, February 8, 2010

i have been going through alot of "spiritual" growing pains as you might say and I have finally decided that the church tha I have been going to for almost 2yrs isn't the place I need to be.First and formost God is the only one that I need and I can connect with Him anywhere and at anytime. I want to find a church where I feel like I can connect with God just like I connect with Him at home. I want to be able to connect with the believers and feel apart of the body. I want to go to a church that has consistancy and balance and I want to know what to expect for example like when i go to a church I want to know what the church has like Bible studies for the men and women or women's ministries and etc etc. I'm tired of the inconsistancies and the excuses. I'm tired of trying to get the woman to connect with each other and I'm tired of feeling like I can't suggest anything because I'm getting shot down. I'm just tired. I need a new church. I feel more connected to God when I'm home than I do when I go and I want to find a church where I feel like I belong. Does that make sense to anyone? Do you think I'm looking in the wrong places?

Friday, February 5, 2010

hobby and God

So I have a new hobby and I love it!!! Candle-making is so much!!! if you want candles made let me know. the prices run from $1.50-$4. On a different note. The Lord has been showing me alot of things lately. I have been learning to really seek Him and run after Him no matter what it costs me and to put my trust in Him no matter the situation. That is a hard thing to do, but it is so rewarding and refreshing when we lay everything at His feet and allow Him to take care it and we don't have to worry about it. I praise God that He is in control of everything big or small.

Monday, February 1, 2010

being supportive of your pastor even when he or she is absent

now I know i should think that whoever comes to church those are the people that God wants there. But its more than that. As you all know I am a Pastor kid and I know what's its like to be in a pastor's home and the struggles. What really has always bothered me to no end is that people say that they love and support and appreciate their pastor when they are working hard and being there every sunday but when the pastor and family are not around that's when the true color's of the church come out. We say we love and support our pastor, but when they are gone and we don't show up how does that show our love and support? We as a church should love and support our pastor and family no matter if they are here every sunday or for just one sunday when they are not. The pastor and family should be able to feel like they can go on a vacation and know that every person that comes normally when they are there would go even when they are not there. Yesterday Pastor and his wife were gone to celebrate there 25th anniversary and Ben and I were substituting for them. You all know who we are and i was so shocked that only 3 kids and 7 adults were there.COME ON PEOPLE WHERE IS YOU LOVE AND SUPPORT FOR YOU PASTOR AND WIFE!!!!! It makes we so sick inside that the church can be so not supportive and appreciatve. I AM VERY ASHAMED OF EVERYONE THAT DIDN'T SHOW AND YOU SHOULD BE ASHAMED OF YOURSELVES TOO. you need to really think do you really love and appreciate your pastor and family?

Saturday, January 30, 2010

church tomorrow

So pastor and his wife are gone for the weekend and Ben and I get to play substitute pastor and wife. It should be interesting. We have done it before so its not too bad. We will be leading worship, doing announcements, offering, Ben will be preaching and I have Children's church.

Friday, January 29, 2010

this week

So this week has been really good. I have kept the house up and got meals around and did dishes and everything!!! Today or tomorrow is laundry day. I just thank God for giving me the motivation to be a better housekeeper and wife. I praise Him for all He has done for me!! Give thanks to the Lord!!!! In everything that we do no matter how big or how small praise Him and thank Him for it all.

Thursday, January 28, 2010

is ready for change from my weight all the way to church. *sigh* Lord please speak to ben soon.

Wednesday, January 27, 2010

new routine 2

so the new routine isn't going well. but aleast ben is getting breakfast every morning before work and have awesome meals the rest of the day. We see the problem of why its not working, its the going to bed around 9pm that we are struggling with. That's the hardest thing of the day i think. But it can be overcome and we will succeed with the Lord's help.

Tuesday, January 26, 2010

being a homemaker

So today I'm starting to be more like a homemaker and do everything from scratch like I use to when my mom was teaching me how to cook. I love doing things old way. like making bread, noodles and puddings and etc from scratch. I feel a sense of accomplishment when I do things the old way. I hope that someday I will be able to pass down to my girls all that I have learned while cooking, baking and cleaning.

Monday, January 25, 2010

New Routine

So Ben and I have started a new routine today and it actually worked pretty well today. We got up at 6:30am and had breakfast and he was off to work at 8am. Now all I need to do today is do my everyday and today's chores and tonight make sure we are up to bed around 8:30pm so we can have our Bible time together. We are reading through the whole Bible we read two chapters a night, one from the Old Testament and one from the New Testament. I feel so refreshed after we have our Bible time and prayer its something that I think every Christian couple needs to do to help one another grow spiritually together and individually. So important for couples to be intuned to each other's lives in every aspect. Well I think that's all for now. I need to go and do my own Bible time now and get on with my day.

Until next time keep pressing on and enjoy the journey,

Saturday, January 23, 2010

no subject

Well this blogger thing is really cool. I think I'm going to really like this. I will share more later.

A New Start

Well I thought I would give this blogging site a try. I will blog more later.