Monday, March 29, 2010

new weight loss goal

i want to lose 30lbs. in 6wks and then lose another 30lbs in 6wks.

Tuesday, March 16, 2010

WELL ALL I CAN SAY IS WOW!!!! biggest loser last chance workout is really awesome!!! it really works ya out!! i need to get heavier weights because my toning sticks are not enough. but all the other work outs are amazing!!

Saturday, March 13, 2010

prayer

so ben and I are thinking about maybe we should start thinking and praying about adopting babies. it would be cool because then the children will have something in common with me because I was adopted and that would be neat to talk and share with them about what its like to go through adoption.

Wednesday, March 10, 2010

health

So i think i'm going to try the special K challenge to lose 6lbs in 2wks. Replace two meals with special K cereal and eat one regular meal. Of course I will keep exercising and it will be even more fun to exercise now since we got the wii. But I will continue my Taebo workouts. Anyone want to join in the challenge?

Monday, March 8, 2010

well i'm really hoping and praying tha ben and I can take a month off of going to our church and go somewhere else for awhile. I really wish we could change all together but ben feels that we are not suppose to leave yet and its frustrating and depressing for me because I don't understand what God is doing. I wonder why God wants to keep me at a place where I feel like I'm not wanted and that I don't know anything about what its like to be in the ministry and how difficult it is to be a pastor. I know I don't know everything but I have a pretty good idea because I grew up in a pastor's home and I know and have seen the good and bad times. I have a pretty good handle of it and I see things at a different perspective and I just want the church to grow and do better and I feel like the pastor and his wife don't want to change and make things better because they have tried all kinds of things and to them they haven't worked and so they are so discouraged that just about everytime I have an idea they are very dismissive and have excuses of why they can't or it won't work. its time to wake up and try again its time to get out of the rut they have themselves in and listen to the congregation and deal with the issues that need to be addressed. A good shepherd listens, and deals with things and steps on toes in love so that there can be unity, balance, structure and boundaries to help us grow and connect with each other.

Friday, March 5, 2010

venting

I hate the weekend, i really do. Because I never go anywhere and when the weekend comes and I want to do stuff or stay up really late and just hang with my hubby, he doesn't really cooperate. Sometimes he forgets that I never get out and go anywhere. It gets frustrating and I just get depressed and go crazy and it isn't until I'm in a emotional state and beg him to do stuff with me that he will. Now I love my hubby very much and he isn't perfect, but I just wished that he would be more attentive and remember me.

Tuesday, March 2, 2010

thoughts in my head

so i've been doing pretty well lately. I've started exercising and i've lost 2lbs so far and I'm really happy and i know that it will get hard but i will kick this weight out of town!!! So ben and I have decided to look around at different churches because I have been having a hard time this year and a half with going to the church we have been because I never got the chance to decided what church i would like to go to and he did and i went there because he did and I've really struggled with that. I haven't been able to connect and fellowship outside of church and I've tried to come up with things that the women could do to just connect with just women and I've just been shot down at every turn and its been really hard and I've felt like an outsider and that they don't want to connect with me. Now how we convey that to pastor and kathy will be very hard and i don't know how they will take that. So please keep praying for us. thanks.

Monday, March 1, 2010

exercise routine

So today is my second week of exercising and man let me tell ya its hard work!!!! Mon-Sat. I exercise twice a day. In the morning and in the afternoon. So lets keep rocking it out with the exercising and kick this weight out of town!!!! YEAH!!!!!!