Monday, May 24, 2010

well its been super hot and humid here lately 91 degrees. very very unusual for may. ben and I are now both have a sense that we will be leaving the church we are currently going to. We don't know when but it will be soon. Please pray that we hear from God and receive the wisdom and direction about where to go from here. In a sense it makes me sad, but I want to be where God wants me to be.

Wednesday, May 19, 2010

what does bearing fruit mean?

Ben and I have been talking alot and reading the Bible and something hit us and we were like wow!! We came across in the Gospels right after Jesus warns us about false teachers and prophets that we would know them by their fruits. Now, a lot of us think that bearing fruit is the result of doing a ministry or this and that. But what we realized is that Jesus isn't talking about what they are doing, but how they are living. It makes sense because in Galatians there's the list of the Fruit of the Spirit: love, joy, peace, longsuffering, gentleness, goodness, faith, meekness, and temperance. These are all of the things that we should have in our day to day lives. Jesus said that He was the vine and we are the branches and if we abided in Him, He would abide in us. What does that mean? I think it means if we are looking to Him and walking in Him and reflecting Him in our lives, then we will bear fruit which are love, joy, peace and etc. We can do all the ministry stuff we want to and be very successful, but if our lives are not reflecting the Character of Christ then what we are doing doesn't matter. So how are we living today? Are we reflecting Christ who was all of these Fruits or are we just saying we are Christians and not really living it? Its all about living and not doing. Something to really think about. Even I'm still thinking about it and I want to learn more of what it means to be like Christ and bear fruit.

Tuesday, May 18, 2010

I'm doing quite a bit better today. last week was super rough and yesterday too. but I'm getting alot of work done. I have my garden all planted. I have my veggie garden and I have a herb and tea garden!! I'm super excited about all the fresh food we will have! I am also happy that I have now lost a total of 9lbs. I'm 177 and it hasn't been easy. But I'm going to keep pressing forward and walking in God. Here's a question for us to ponder does God want us to strive or Walk? Lets think about that this week and look through the Word of God to find the answer. We may be surprised!

Thursday, May 13, 2010


Monday, May 10, 2010

well yesterday was so super hard, harder than last year. I'm truly thankful for what mom's do, but i wish i could join the ranks soon. You don't think about when u are a kid, but when u are married and you want to have kids its really really hard. its frustrating because there are women in the world who fool around and are not married get pregnant and just seemed to just pop them out and not take care or be responsible and they can celebrate mother's day and Its not fair to married couples that want kids so bad but are having a hard time getting pregnant, but they are responsible mature people. Life is not fair that's all i can say. I felt so alone yesterday, i was the only one who wasn't a mom in church yesterday, i sat in the bathroom through half of the sermon, because i felt so out of place, i feel out of place there any ways, but more so yesterday. I feel like I'm always last in alot of things. it seems like just about everyone that i know are having or did have babies that were married the same time i was and its like why can't i be too? it just sucks.

Monday, May 3, 2010

something totally new

so ben and I have decided to try this multivitamin fertility enhancement pill called Fertilaid. There's a formula for women and for men and I've been reading alot of good things about it and so I am hoping and praying that it will help.