Tuesday, June 29, 2010

well over all had a great week with family. we saw the Badlands, Mt. Rushmore, Wind Cave, The Mammoth Site, buffalo, prairie dogs and pronghorned antelope!! it was fun. pics soon to come!

Sunday, June 20, 2010

So this is the first Sunday in a long time that Ben is not the worship leader, but he deserves a break and now we can really tune into what God wants us to do and I hope and pray we hear from God. That's all we ask for is that we hear and know beyond a shadow of a doubt what we are suppose to do. My family will be here tuesday night and I am so excited to see them!! After they leave we plan are visiting other churches. Please pray that we hear from God and that He will give us wisdom and direction on what to do.

Wednesday, June 16, 2010

is so frustrated!!! I'm trying to trust God and his timing, but its so hard to see people who were married after me pregnant and I've been married for 2yrs. I just don't understand, why God is allowing me to go through this dry time. I hope i get out of it soon because I am totally and utterly empty.

Thursday, June 10, 2010

I cry and cry to the Lord for help, but I feel He's so far away. I am sinking into the sea of loneliness,
despair, feeling i'm not good enough for anything, i do try to reach out to people and fellowship but i always feel they don't want to, i feel useless and lifeless. I am trying to find things i can do, but i haven't been able to find any and I feel like no one wants or is willing to help me. I feel out of control in my emotions. i feel unmotivated. i am nothing but a lump of leftover week old pizza.

Tuesday, June 1, 2010

HAD A GREAT 2ND ANNIVERSARY!!!! pics soon to follow!