Tuesday, August 31, 2010


here's a quote that I read in my Bible Study work book:

"May I be careful to maintain a constant, habitual sense of Thee in my mind; to live and act as in Thy presence; to think often of Thee.May I ever remember that I am in the presence of the great and holy God." by Susanna Wesley

Monday, August 30, 2010

feeling inspired

I feel inspired to and I started today do the "A Woman After God's Own Heart" by Elizabeth George Bible Study. I am very excited about what the Lord wants to teach me because I only can be the woman, wife and someday mother that God wants me to be only if I let Him teach me and that's what I want. So please pray that I will hear from God as I start this journey of becoming A WOMAN AFTER GOD'S OWN HEART!!!

Friday, August 27, 2010

neat devo

this Daily Bread Devotional really hit me today and I thought I would share it.

Both Near And Far

Turn away my eyes from looking at worthless things, and revive me in
Your way. —Psalm 119:37

Everything was quiet in our yard. While I worked at the patio table,
our dog, Maggie, lay nearby in the grass. A slight rustling of dry
leaves changed everything. Maggie made her move, and suddenly she was
circling a tree, where a woodchuck clung tightly to the trunk.

Maggie came when I called, but I couldn’t get her to look at me. Her
neck was in a rigidly fixed position. Although she was near me
physically, her thoughts and desires were with that woodchuck.

Maggie and the woodchuck remind me of how quickly I become preoccupied
with things that take my eyes off Jesus. Old temptations, new
responsibilities, or ongoing desires for possessions or pleasure can
quickly divert my attention from the One who knows and wants what is
best for me.

A similar spiritual condition afflicted the Pharisees (Matt. 15:8-9).
They were serving in the temple and instructing others, but their
hearts were far from God.

We too can teach and serve at church but be far from God. Even our
religious activity becomes meaningless when our focus is not on Jesus.
But if we stop being “stiff-necked” (Acts 7:51), the Lord can turn our
eyes away from worthless things and revive our hearts.

Some people follow Jesus Christ,
Then obstacles get in their way;
But if they’ll focus on the Lord
They won’t be led astray. —Sper

When Christ is the center of our life, all else comes into proper focus.

Matthew 15:7-20 (GOD’S WORD Translation)

7"You hypocrites! Isaiah was right when he prophesied about you:

8‘These people honor me with their lips, but their hearts are far from me.
9Their worship of me is pointless, because their teachings are rules
made by humans.’ ”

10Then he called the crowd and said to them, “Listen and try to
understand! 11What goes into a person’s mouth doesn’t make him
unclean. It’s what comes out of the mouth that makes a person

From Mrs. Ann--There is the expression "actions speak louder than
", however, words can speak very harshly, hatefully, nastily.
Adolf Hitler wasn't the evil man that he was because he ate pork, for
example. It was the words that he said, that condemned millions to
their deaths. There was the plane crash in the Andes in the 1970s,
the soccer team, where they were stranded for so long that the
survivors had to resort to cannibalism in order to survive. We are
taught that to eat our own species is akin to sacrilege, yet those
people, in such trying times, had to do just that. I give that as an
extreme example, and quite frankly, I don't know if God considered
that (in that situation particularly) to be unclean.

Unclean words are words spoken in hate, in anger, words denying God.
Spouses fighting, arguing, spewing forth hurtful words directed at
each other in the heat of anger. Children teasing fellow classmates
with such words as "four-eyes", "piggy", "weirdo", etc. None of these
are words of love or support, or wisdom.

12Then the disciples came and said to him, “Do you realize that when
the Pharisees heard your statement they were offended?”

13He answered, “Any plant that my heavenly Father did not plant will
be uprooted. 14Leave them alone! They are blind leaders. When one
blind person leads another, both will fall into the same pit.”

15Peter said to him, “Explain this illustration to us.”

16Jesus said, “Don’t you understand yet? 17Don’t you know that
whatever goes into the mouth goes into the stomach and then into a
toilet? 18But whatever goes out of the mouth comes from within, and
that’s what makes a person unclean. 19Evil thoughts, murder, adultery,
other sexual sins, stealing, lying, and cursing come from within.
20These are the things that make a person unclean. But eating without
washing one’s hands doesn’t make a person unclean.”

Monday, August 23, 2010

change continued

well so I started a job on Thurs. and its been great to get out of the house and meet new people. Its one of those jobs that its an easy job, but there's a lot to know. Now that I'm working I need to figure out a new house schedule, so that I can keep up with the household chores and etc.

Thursday, August 19, 2010


well I finally got a job!! Its at a donut and bake shoppe! today was my first day and it went great!

Monday, August 16, 2010

getting older

Saturday I will be 24! wow I'm getting older.

Saturday, August 14, 2010


well, I don't really know what to say. I am very saddened and hurt by the turn of events that have happened practically overnight. We told our now former pastor and wife that we felt God was wanting us to leave the church for now and that out of respect for them we felt it was right to tell them and that we would like to tell the congregation goodbye and that we felt God was leading us somewhere else. that was 2wks ago. He called today and said that after praying he didn't want us to tell the congregation and that he wasn't comfortable giving his blessing because we didn't know where we were going, but we remember telling them that we had found a place. I was so angry and hurt because after everything we had done for the church and them and ben was the worship leader for almost 5yrs he was not giving us the courtesy and the respect to tell the congregation goodbye and I felt that we owed the congregation that much to hear it directly from us and not from anyone else. Its funny how people say they appreciate everything that you do for them and then when u say u are leaving they turn on you and practically kick u under the rug. I know they must feel hurt and feel like we are deserting them, but still that's no way to treat a fellow brother or sister in Christ. Where's the love? When bad situations come up people's true nature comes out. But all in all, I must leave it at the feet of Jesus and show mercy and grace and expect nothing in return. We love and care and appreciate every single person at a certain place and we hope and pray that we can still be friends and stay connected. Please try and understand that we must follow where the Lord leads us and we only want to do His Will. Don't think for a minute that we are abandoning you, because we are not. God bless.

Thursday, August 12, 2010


well this sunday will be our last sunday. I have a mix of emotions, but I know that God is on the throne and He is and will continue to lead us. We still are going to have our coffeehouse every wednesday night starting on August 25 @ 7pm and its open to whoever wants to come!

Saturday, August 7, 2010


well we have decided that we will be leaving the church we have been going to. We feel this is what God wants us to do for now. Please continue to pray for us and that we will continue to hear from God. thanks.

Thursday, August 5, 2010

sleeping in

I love sleeping in, but at the same time I hate it because i always have trouble falling asleep.

Sunday, August 1, 2010


found out today that a girl in my church is pregnant with her third child. I am really happy for her and her family. Its just that they are flat broke and are moving into a trailer and its just frustrating to see people that are struggling having kids when the environment is unstable. I don't get why really stable people have a harder time. I just don't understand. Lord when is it going to be my turn?