Friday, October 29, 2010

Rules for living

So ben and I have had enough of being lazy and disorganized and we are ready to change and make living worth while. we have laid ground rules and have given ourselves things that we have to get done just about every day if we want to have relax time or tv time and we have given ourselves cut off times for computer and tv. I really believe that God will helps get caught up and keep us caught up as we continually give Him our lives and our schedules to Him. So please be in pray for us as we start this new journey.

Sunday, October 24, 2010

sad

well yesterday we found out that our house church wasn't going to be meeting anymore. so we are again churchless. we found out the reason today and I can definitely understand. the guy that was leading it is wife isn't doing well and feels that he must take care of his wife more. He said that if his son, ben and another guy wanted to get together and pray about continuing it he would come. So I just don't know what we are going to do. I guess for now we might go to the Faith Missionary Church which is a Holiness Church and pray and seek God about what He would have us do. its just really hard because I can't see where God is leading and that's hard for me because I am the type of person that needs to be in the know. I know this is good for me to go through every once in awhile because it makes me be more dependent on God and learn to trust Him no matter how hard the going is.

Wednesday, October 13, 2010

sad and disappointed

So its been 2 months since ben and I left the Foursquare Church. Its been good though and I know its what God wanted us to do. but I'm just sad and disappointed because I wanted to stay somehow connected with the people through the coffeehouse and that hasn't happened and every year we have a Christmas party at my home and I guess the church has something else planned. I mean its great they are actually really starting to do things and have projects for the church and growing. I just figured I guess our connection wouldn't change much. but I was wrong. I know they are all busy. I don't know, maybe God is saying that our time has completely past with them. I really need to pray and think about it.

Monday, October 4, 2010

sad

well just about everyone I know that was married after me have babies or are pregnant or going to have their second. I am just feel so left out and I am trying to understand why ben and I have not been blessed with a baby yet. Having a baby would be the greatest thing in the world to me. I hate working, I want to be home so bad with a baby. I just don't understand. I am trying hard to just leave it in God's hands, but its so hard to not get depressed. I have been praying so hard for a baby that I don't think I can pray anymore.

Friday, October 1, 2010

very good sermon

I normally don't post sermons or anything, but ben and I really felt challenged and blessed by it that I wanted to share it. So here's a 3 part sermon on Law and Grace. Part one the relationship between Law and grace, part 2 is righteousness by faith or by effort? and part three is grace conditional or unconditional? Be encouraged, blessed and challenged.


http://www.apostasywatch.com/portals/0/audio/law&grace.mp3

http://www.apostasywatch.com/portals/0/audio/law&grace2.mp3

http://www.apostasywatch.com/portals/0/audio/law&grace3.mp3

thoughts

so lately the winds of trials and tribulations have been blowing and its been a very hard week and i have been down, but i have been reminded of how important it is to trust God and study His Word and allow Him to lead and guide me no matter what the cost.