well just about everyone I know that was married after me have babies or are pregnant or going to have their second. I am just feel so left out and I am trying to understand why ben and I have not been blessed with a baby yet. Having a baby would be the greatest thing in the world to me. I hate working, I want to be home so bad with a baby. I just don't understand. I am trying hard to just leave it in God's hands, but its so hard to not get depressed. I have been praying so hard for a baby that I don't think I can pray anymore.